This We See

what’s this WE see
a new man could it BE HE
come to set us free
hometown in Galilee?
Maybe stay a while
learn from HE
when it’s hard to remember
the time preceding that December
a hellish hurt blotted out badly
broke the shade
hands and knees
levers and pulleys
grab ahold of me
here we go - wee
I still miss she and he
hard to see them clearly
shadows and flashes
snapshots and stills
Lord, please help me -
this area hurts,
bundled pain
torments my brain
amplified shame
knowing that my name and number
is [a/the] subject of several [persons]
operating at a level above what we see - normally.
Forced to hurt on camera
or hold it inside,
forced to BE onstage
like a zoo [animal] in a cage -
what happens in rage Lord?
I’d not follow that path[way].
May I sit in silence with you,
sit and smile awhile?

Always dear boy,
you know where to find ME -
out in the River.//